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My Family: The Killer of Dreams

July 12th, 2005 (12:52 am)
stressed

current mood: shitty
current song: Kansas - Dust in the wind

So... apparently I'm selfish, snobby, ungrateful, and a bad son. This is according to my sister or so I think.

You see, my sister is in debt. About a couple of years ago she took out a $25,000.00 loan to purchase a motorcycle. A harley davidson. A couple of years later she owes $24,000.00 still but can only sell the bike for $22,000.

So... what does she want... she wants me to give her $2,000.00. And, do I need $2,000.00? Of course not. It's not like I'm going to University and paying for my education. It's not like I'm trying to have enough money saved that I don't have to ask my mother for $500 in the middle of term to pay for bills or whatever. It's not like I have my own shit to deal with.

Ugh... this was compounded by the fact that ever since my sister knew I was coming home to work she has hounded me for money. I remember the first conversation I had with her once we found out I had a job in Toronto and staying at home. It went something like this

Ruta: So, how much are you paying for rent right now?
Me: $375 and next term I'm paying $500 a month.
Ruta: Good, so you can pay mommy $500 a month.
Me: You're fucking nuts, the reason I came to work in Toronto is so I could save money
Ruta: Oh.... ok.

She's been trying to guilt me into giving her and my mother all my money so that they can pay their debts. Even though she is like $40,000 in debt, and my mother $190,000. After paying like $1300 to my mother's 8000/10000 limit credit card I thought it would be generous to give my mom $500 from my inheritence of $2,500. After paying off some of my own debt (about $1,700 in my line of credit) I decided I'd give my mom $260 now, and then at the end of term if after paying for school I have some money left over, I'd give her $240.

Well, according to my sister this is lying. She started yelling at me because I was talking to her the day/night before asking her whether I should just pay more of my mom's credit card off or to just give my mom money. After a quick assessment of my estimated funds, and how much I need I felt that giving my mom $500 right now might put me too far back to pay off my tuition and that if I gave my mom $260 right now, I would have some money saved for later when I need it to pay off my tuition. And if I had enough money (which I should) I'd be able to pay my mom another $240 or heck $260 in august after I've paid off my tuition.

So, my response to this is that I need to be sure that I can pay for my tuition and that is more important than giving my mom all my money. My sister disagreed and was raising her voice even more and I replied that it wasn't my fault that my mother can't manager her money well. Then my sister said, but you have enough to buy yourself a $400 monitor. First off, with the rebate that I have to send in, it will be $350... secondly, I paid for it, with my money, seperate entirely from anything that has to do with her. Did I say well, you had enough money to buy a $25,000.00 motorcycle. No. But that was mainly because I didn't think about it til later. Either way, I was fed up, and really really angry and frustrated because of my mother losing yet another important document somewhere (which is a reason I felt so shitty before - her response for every important thing I've ever needed but was in her care: Didn't I give that to you? Well, you probably have but fuck if I know where the fuck I have it. Like for example, I have my house's $100 survey just lying on my desk here. She wanted me to put it somewhere safe. Fuck, it's an important document, why the fuck don't you take care of it. Ugh... so frustrating, but whatever.) SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO... I just got up and went for a jog.

On my jog, I decided my family would much rather have me be eternally in debt like them rather than have any sort of future and career making twice the amount of money they make and then help them. It's obviously imperative to them that I give them all the money I ever have and give it to them. I'm obviously overexaggerating. But it still drives me bonkers. Like, I don't think I'd ever seriously drop out like that. I need this. I need to finish my education, I need to be able to support my family. But I can't right now. Once I'm out of school and am comfortable with the amount of money I'm making I can focus on fixing my family's finances, because they obviously have the financial saving sense of 6 year old. A very rich 6 year old.

I was thinking, if I could rethink every deal or expensive trip/object or whatever I took, and had the financial sense to forsee my family's economic ruin I could probably have saved them around $25,000.00. This isn't that much considering the scale of my family's debt, however it is enough to cover my education. And that's the one thing I want. That will set me free. Free from this pigsty, free from my mother's nerve-numbing mundanity, free from my sister's cats, free from my family. I still love them, but I'm dead set on not living like them. I just want that iron ring more than anything, and this just motivates me to do better this term so that I have a better chance at getting scholarships and what not...

Ugh, longest post ever.

And as always Kiri is the bright star in the darkest of skies

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QUIZ?!

July 7th, 2005 (11:38 pm)
complacent
Tags: ,

current mood: complacent
current song: The Hundredth Meridien - The Tragically Hip

So, I was talking with Kiri on my way home from work, after bs'ing my way into 11.5 hours today, when she told me about this quiz she was taking. It seems long... and it seems fun... so I'm going to give it a try.

If I were...
If I were a month, I would be: December
If I were a day of the week, I would be: Wednesday (Hmmmmmhump day)
If I were a time of day, I would be: 4pm
If I were a planet, I would be: Saturn
If I were a season, I would be: Winter
If I were a sea animal, I would be: A clown fish
If I were a direction, I would be: North
If I were a piece of furniture, I would be: A bed
If I were a historical person, I would be: J. Edgar Hoover
If I were a liquid, I would be: Distilled alcohol
If I were a stone, I would be: Ruby
If I were a flavor, I would be: Banana
If I were a tree, I would be: Pine
If I were a bird, I would be: A bluejay
If I were a tool, I would be: "A" tool? I'd like to be "The" Tool.
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: Mistletoe
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: A hurricane
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: A cowbell
If I were an animal, I would be: A dog
If I were a color, I would be: A red
If I were an emotion, I would be: Lust
If I were a fruit, I would be: An apple
If I were ice cream, I would be: Caramel
If I were a sound, I would be: A symphony
If I were an element, I would be: Neon
If I were a car, I would be: Mazda Miata
If I were a song, I would be: You spin me right round baby right round like a record baby right round round round
If I were a movie, I would be directed by: Quentin Tarentino
If I were a book, I would be written by: James Joyce
If I were a painting, I would be painted by: Picasso
If I were a house, I would be made of: Well, if I'm a pine, then that's what I'd be if i were a house too.
If I were a snack, I would be: Chocolate Chip Cookies
If I were a place, I would be: An office tower
If I were a material, I would be: Silk
If I were a taste, I would be: Sweet
If I were a scent, I would be: A fresh bakery
If I were a religion, I would be: Catholocism
If I were a word, I would be: Convoluted
If I were an object, I would be: A red robot
If I were a body part, I would be: Chest
If I were a facial expression, I would be: A smirk
If I were a subject in school, I would be: Psychology
If I were a cartoon character, I would be: Stinko Man
If I were a number, I would be: 42

Last...
Last Cigarette: New Years in Montreal
Last Alcoholic Drink: Last weekend
Last Car Ride: Last Sunday
Last Kiss: Last Sunday
Last Good Cry: If I'm crying it's not good
Last Library Book: Ummm... Probably something to do with Chemistry
Last book bought: Bill Bryson: A short history of everything
Last Book Read: The Hacker Ethic
Last Movie Seen in Theatres: Batman Begins
Last Movie Rented: Garden State
Last Cuss Word Uttered: Fuck
Last Beverage Drank: Water
Last Food Consumed: Manchu Wok
Last Crush: Lindsay Lohan, then Kiri
Last Phone Call: Kiri
Last TV Show Watched: A bit of Mythbusters
Last Time Showered: Ugh.. Wenesday?
Last Shoes Worn: Flipflops
Last CD Played: Cocaine Cowgirl
Last Item Bought: Fujiplus 19
Last Download: Ummm, Battlefield 2
Last Annoyance: Crappy offshore developers
Last Disappointment: Crappy offshore developers
Last Soda Drank: Diet Coke
Last Thing Written: A letter to my love
Last Key Used: Clearly y.
Last Words Spoken: Love
Last Sleep: Woke up at 7 this morning
Last Ice Cream Eaten: I think last week
Last Chair Sat In: My crappy cat hair full chair
Last Webpage Visited: tigerdirect.ca

Random...

HAVE YOU EVER...
1. Kissed your cousin: Yes
2. Ran away: Yes
3. Pictured your crush naked: Yes
4. Skipped school: Yes
5. Broken someone's heart: Nope.
6. Been in love: Yes.
7. Cried when someone died: Yes
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: Hmmm, sure
9. Broken a bone: Nope
10. Done something embarrassing: Who hasn't?
11. Lied: Yeah.
12. Cried in school: Yep

WHICH IS [BETTER]...
13. Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi
14. Sprite or 7-UP: Sprite
15. Girls or Guys: Girls, the guys I know make my life too dramatic
16. Flowers or Candy: Flowers
17. Scruff or Clean shaved: Shaved
18. Blondes or Brunettes: Hmmm.. tried both, prefer blondes
19. bitchy or slutty: Oh man... can i get a #2 with that
20. Tall or Short: Short
21. Pants or Shorts: Pants
22. Night or Day: Night. It's hard for it to end without something happening...

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX...
23. What do you notice first: Figure
24. Slapped butt: It's kind of kinky, and I kind of like it when someone slaps my bum
25. Worst Question To Ask: Too many to think of one...

THE LAST TIME YOU...
26. Showered: Answered already <- Wednesday
27. Stepped outside: Like an hour ago, stupid work
28. Had Sex: I think it would have been around 9pm (not today)

ABOUT YOU...
29. Romantic memory: Wathcing the aurora borealis while driving to waterloo.
30. Your Good luck charm: A coin I stamped when I was at a medievil fare in Lithuania
31. Person You Hate Most: Oh man, I hate a lot of people, but I like them at the same time... it's a bit complicated.
32. Best Thing That Has Happened: Getting myself organized
33. NO QUESTION? CANT TOUCH ME! Right
34. Picture on your desktop: A collage of Kiri and I

FAVORITE...
35. Color: Blue
36. Movie: Fight Club
37. Artist or band: The Tragically Hip
38. Cars: BMW 330Ci
39. Ice Cream: Anything wiht Caramel
41. Food: Pizza

WHO...
42. Makes You Laugh The Most: Myself usually
43. Makes You Smile: Kiri
44. Can Make You Feel Better No Matter What: Kiri
45. Has A Crush On You: Hmmm, I'm going to go on Kiri
46. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: I'm going to go with Kiri
47. Who Has It Easier?: Girls :P Man, if I were a girl, I'd have my choice of men, and I'd choose me, if I were a guy. It would be a match made in heaven, or maybe hell... would that be sodomy?
48. Gives You A Funny Feeling When You See Them: Julia

DO YOU EVER...
49. Sit By The Phone Waiting For A Phone Call All Night: Not that I remember
50. Save AIM Conversations: ... I like to AIM at things
51. Save E-mails: Most of the time
52. Forward Secret E-mails: These are not the secret emails you are looking for
53. Wish You Were Someone Else: Sometimes.
54. Wish You Were A Member Of The Opposite Sex: Yes
55. Wear perfume: Cologne
56. Kiss: Yes
57. Cuddle: Yes
58. Go Online For Longer Than Eight Hours At A Time: Wired 18 hours a day

HAVE YOU EVER
59. Fallen For Your Best Friend: Kind of
60. Made Out With JUST A Friend?: No
61. Kissed Two People In The Same Day?: Yes...
62. Had Sex With Two Different People In The Same Day?: No
63. Been Rejected?: At the tender age of 11 or so.
64. Been In Love?: Yes
65. Been In Lust?: Yes
66. Used Someone?: Yes
67. Been Used?: Yes
68. Dumped Someone?: No
69. Been Cheated On?: Kind of
70. Been Kissed?: Yes
71. Done Something You Regret?: Yeah

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
72. You Touched?: My mom
73. You Talked To?: In person? Stupid offshore developer whose onsite - Phone - Kiri
74. You Hugged?: Kiri - ugh that was so long ago.
75. You Instant Messaged?: Kiri
76. You Kissed?: Kiri
77. You Yelled At?: Kiri
78. You Thought About?: Kiri
79. Who Text Messaged You?: Kiri
80. Who Broke Your Heart?: Emily
81. Who Told You They Loved You?: Kiri

MORE ABOUT YOU...
82. Color Your Hair? Brown
83. Have Tattoos? Nope
84. Have Piercings?: Nope
85. Boyfriend/girlfriend?: Kiri
86. Own A Webcam?: Yeah
87. Own A Thong?: I wish.. hehe, no
88. Ever Get Off The Damn Computer?: Sadly, no... QA means Computer
89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch? I wish, again.
90. Habla espanol?: No... but Julia does.
91. Quack?: Llama llama duck. <- YES

HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU...
92. Stolen Anything?: Stole a dvd player and a video card
93. Smoke?: Yeah :S
94. Schizophrenic?: Umm what?
95. Obsessive?: Sometimes
96. Compulsive?: Sometimes
97. Obsessive compulsive?: Yes?
98. Panic?: Yeah
99. Anxiety: Hmm, yeah
100. Stressed?: Yeah, sure, stress

Well, that was done. It's tough answering, but it was fun to read Kiri's answers. Reading stuff like this just makes me want to be with her more. Hmmm... Kiri

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Fight for a chicken ball

July 7th, 2005 (06:40 pm)
tired
Tags: ,

current mood: tired
current song: My Music At Work - The Tragically Hip

As I sit at work at my desk, eating my Manchu Wok, while Kiri is dealing with stuff with her friends, I'm going to tell you a quick story of how I got into a fight for a chicken ball.

I decided I wanted to have some Manchu Wok for supper tonight seeing as I need to test the application at my work when it is ready, so I went downstairs and began to browse to see what I wanted. Well, there wasn't much left and the cook behind the counter said that they would be closing.

So I told the server what I wanted and how much I could afford and I ordered a 2 item plate. After selecting the two items, I sheepishly asked whether I could get some chicken balls seeing as they would be closed in 5 minutes.

The woman serving me was like "NO! I can't!" while the guy behind the counter was kind of egging her on. I pleaded with her saying, "But you're going to close in 5 minutes, what are you going to do with the chicken balls?!" Her reply was "I can't, if I give you one, then the next guy will want one. And if my boss finds out..."

I gave her my quickest puppy dog eyed face, and the cook behind the counter kind of smiled. But the chicken ball nazi would have none of it. So as I reluctantly paid for my going old food, I gave the mean which an evil look and took my food back up to my office where I'll probably be camping out til the wee hours of the night.

I wonder what they're going to do with those 3 chicken balls that no one bought... probably save them for tomorrow...

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Boring day at work and the floss nazi

June 28th, 2005 (10:17 pm)
horny

current mood: horny
current song: Across the Stars (Love Theme)

Well, today was quite the boring day at work. The offshore developers were supposed to deliver the new build at 3. This is after I've tested basically everything and need a new build to tell them how horrible they are at coding. Like, everyone at my work thinks that the people who are coding the project I'm working on are idiots.

Think about it like this. You give a thousand monkeys a java class that you've written the header for. You've communicated to the monkeys what the class is supposed to do, and then you lock them up for 2 months. Well, their product would be on par if not better than what I get back from these guys. The head consultant, who I found out today is a University of Windsor CS grad must be dumbfounded as to how these guys can get anything done. He half-jokingly said he was going to ship me to India to do testing and to show them how it's done since basically the only thing stopping me from testing their application fully is that the application breaks almost every new build... :( We're supposed to release this product internally in 2 weeks. I'm still crashing it. All the other projects had a code freeze 2 weeks ago. And... to top everything off, I'm having a meeting with my boss (the head of QA) to determine whether we should go with what we have, not go and delay the release, or go and say here is a list of problems. Oh god, I hate the level of organization within my office.

On a side note, I tried googling the consultants name to see if I could find some stuff out about his consulting firm and all i got was a disgraced PC Member of Parliment and crazy church people... meh, whatever.

Ugh... I was so bored, that I started looking at some peoples MSN spaces. I was so astounded by these blogs, that I decided to get my own. Meh, a little bit of a sellout, but now if people are bored like me and click the icons in msn 7.0 and see what the newest blog entry is, they'll get to learn a little more about me ;)

Well, I left work early (530pm) right when the developers were about to load the new build of the product onto the test environment. The reason was I needed to get to my dentist's appointment. The appointment my mom told me I had to try to get early to. Well, I got there around 550 and walked in, well, they said that they're a bit behind schedule so I'll have to wait 45 minutes... Well, I got to talk with Kiri (which is always good ^_^) however the news from her end wasn't... apparently she's having trouble finding a house to live in because her friends are acting all retardedly. That sucks. :(

Well, 45 minutes later, I walk in and sit down in the dentist's chair. The first thing I notice is that they've installed lcd tv's in all the operating rooms. Interesting. As I watched a bit of Sportsdesk, and then the NBA draft, I sat there as this floss nazi woman rips chucks of flesh out from my gums. Honestly, this is the third time this assistant has cleaned my mouth. The first time I went straight to the dentist afterwards and told her her assistant was a psycho. She's gotten better the past couple of times, but still, I don't like her. Regardless, she demonstrated on me how to floss... then after we were done my flouride treatment... we watched HOW-TO VIDEOS on how to floss on the tv. I knew there was some evil purpose for those boob tubes. The first video we watched was on proper brushing techniques, as they showed the video, you could see that the guy who was brushing had 2 or 3 cavities... the next one we watched was on electric toothbrushes. The guy in this video looked like he was on Al-Jazeera and that there was a gun just off camera telling him if he stops smiling or puts down the electric toothbrush then he's dead. The final one was on flossing. I felt like I was 2 years old, the fucking assistant was like, so now do we know how to floss? I then punched her in the face and spit on her passed out body. Or maybe not...

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So alone, so depressed

June 22nd, 2005 (09:22 pm)
sad

current mood: sad
current song: Southern Girl - Incubus

Maybe it's the book I'm reading, maybe it's because I haven't had much physical exercise, maybe it's that I don't see Kiri every day, either way this week I feel like shit. I feel disconnected, fake, petty, needy. I just want to cry... and give up my worthless life. I feel guilty for feeling this way, mainly because it's based off something I'm too ashamed to admit. Constantly a nightmare is running in my head, a nightmare that paints everything with this horribleness that so far I've been able to stave off. It's happened before and the way things are going I'm just setting myself up. I've been reassured, but even that doesn't seem to put my mind at rest.

All I want to do is hold Kiri, and have her wipe away my tears and tell me she'll love me forever. I'd like that, to be loved forever. And I'm sure it will happen, but I just have to love her, and not fear losing her, and everything should be good.

bleh, 46 more hours and i'll get some peace of mind when I finally have her in my arms, knowing that she loves me, and that I don't have to be sad and depressed and lonely, because I know she'll be there...

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So, the weekend wasn't horrible

June 20th, 2005 (01:31 am)
cold

current mood: cold
current song: Social Code - Miss You

Well, a little recap of this weekend.


  1. (Friday) MOT - Pretty good, was able to get a whole bunch of batch, especially the fruit punch stuff. I still have to remember to take more pictures of other people and myself with other people. I spent a bit more time with my friends which was good and didn't hang around Kiri that much, which wasn't that good, because I should have cut her off earlier to prevent her early evening retirement. On my way to the spur I accidentally dropped Sabrina's camera and now I feel a bit better and not as hectic and terrible as I did when I posted Saturday morning

  2. (Saturday) Father's Day with the Neufeglise's - After Kiri woke up from her hungover'd slumber I made her all sorts of toast/greasy eggs/bacon... mmmmmm bacon. After that we went to the Purolator place to pick up her ink cartridge only to find out that those bastards are lazy on Saturday and close at 1pm and don't understand that everyone is hung over and that they only get up at 1pm. Well, whatever. We eventually made our way to Chapters to buy her mom and dad their respective day gifts (we kind of forgot to buy her a gift in may, so we bought her mom some margarita mix and her dad this ninja mind manipulation book). After that I returned those awful awful TShirts and from there we went to Kiri's to see her dad since he wouldn't be there on Father's day. We went to see Star Wars for the third time o_O and I'm beginning not to like that movie. Oh well. I ended up kicking Kiri's little brother for the umpteenth time at AOE2. It was a nice calm day with respect to the events of Friday.

  3. (Sunday) Real father's day - We woke up, showered and headed over to Mel's for breakfast. Now this is where things kind of got out of hand. We got there, and within a couple of minutes we were sitting down (good). We got out menus (also good) and began to look at what we wanted. Now this is where things kind of go down hill... I was looking at my cutlery, and my fork had some crud on it (bad) 15 minutes later (very bad) one of the waiters, a nice guy who served us last time, came up and took our order for drinks and food (good). We got our drinks (good again) however 25 minutes later we were told that our order hadn't gone through and that there was an error printing our order our and basically we would have to wait another 15 minutes before eating (very very bad). The guy said he was sorry and that our meals would be on the house (very good). Also, I ordered Banana bread french toast, which proved to be quite tastey and exquisite. It melted in your mouth. Yum. After that little circus act at Mel's Kiri and I went to get some groceries and eventually just bummed around at her place until she made me some very yummy supper. She's a far better cook than my mom, and I love her food, almost as much as I love her. ^_^

    The evening kind of ended on a sour note as I kind of forgot to help her wash dishes and stuff, and I know that it annoyed her, and I felt bad leaving when she was in such a terrible mood, but oh well. May sleep bring her peace of mind. Hmm, what I would give to be sleeping beside her now, and not in my central air'd house. Which is REALLY REALLY cold right now. Oh well. The good news is that Kiri will be coming to my place next weekend which means I don't have to leave work early Friday (yay) and that I don't have to drive for an hour to see Kiri (yay) and that I get to sleep with Kiri in my nice big soft bed and not that stupid rez bed (yay) and most importantly that I get to see her again ^_^ (yay yay yay)



Well, I think considering that it's almost 2:30AM that I should be hitting the sack. Hmmhmmmm... I like blogging.

sith_praetorian [userpic]

To the perfect girl

June 20th, 2005 (01:28 am)
loved

current mood: loved
current song: Everclear - I will buy you a new life

You are so perfect
My love is a potato
We are eternal

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Fucking Tshirts and shitty Batch

June 18th, 2005 (07:49 am)
confused

current mood: I don't know what I want
current song: The Imperial March

Well,

I left work early yesterday to make it early to Waterloo so I could pick up my awesome T-Shirts... but there was one problem. The fucking guy who I ordered them from has no clue that light green != lime/neon green.

In my order email I told him I wanted a light green, what does he get me, lime green. What do I SPECIFICALLY not ask for, neon green. I don't know how many people can honestly think that lime green doesn't look like neon green you tell me. I also SPECIFICALLY said that if he couldn't open up the image files which had the SPECIFIC colour tshirt I wanted, that he was to email me, and I'd send him a JPG of it. Well, obviously he has no fucking clue. Not only did he fuck up the order, he yelled at me on Wednesday saying that the screeners couldn't open up one of the files I sent. Honestly, I'm not going to be making any more TShirts with him. I stupidly wrote a cheque for these pieces of shit, but sometime today I'm going to drop by there and return the shirts and rip up the cheque, or I'm going to get a stop payment on my cheque first thing Monday morning, so those fuckers can't fuck me over with their fucking shitty products.

I sent him an email basically outlining my plans, that I'm picked up the shirts, and that I'm not happy, and that the shirts have to be redone, in a proper GREEN!

Fuck, he always fucks me over. Even last term when I was making TShirts for my class he paid like 2 seconds talking with me giving me misquotes and everything. I wish he got his act together, he has one of those fake smiles you just want to smack. I get so angry thinking about him.

Then, there was the whole batch thing. I dunno, it was nice seeing Kiri, I love her, but she drank too much, and is still passed out, it was nice taking care of her, but I dunno. I feel weird now, like, I feel antsy sitting here in her room. I don't know what to do, I'm still really frustrated by last night because of the tshirts. After taking care of Kiri, I went back to POETS, saw some friends but it sucked... I don't know why, but it did. I feel so disconnected from friends and stuff now. And... to finish the evening, I destroyed Sabrina's camera by picking her up and running with her for a bit as we went to the Silver Spur. It fell out of her bag and onto the floor where the shell kind of got dislodged. If she doesn't hate me, I hate me. I feel so awkward all the time around people. The only person I don't feel awkward around is Kiri, but if there are other people around, then yeah, it feels awkward. But I dunno, I'm getting pulled into an emotional limbo. If I'm in Waterloo, I'm visiting Kiri but... Since shes in Waterloo all the time now she can go and visit all her friends. The thing is, all my friends are basically here too. So I get jealous how she has time for all her friends all the time, and I feel like I keep on ignoring mine... I dunno. I don't know what I want...

Work sucks too, I got offered triple time by the consultant in charge of the project I'm working on to come in today, but again, I choose Kiri over everything else. I dunno, also there was batch, and everything, but I feel like I get more emotionally hurt at these things then ever. I feel so phoney walking around, especially how I was dressed, dress pants, work shirt... I dunno, I should have worn jeans. I just want school to start, I don't know. This morning has been a wreck, its 8am now, and I've been up since 5 basically because sometimes when I drink I wake up at abnormal times. I dunno.

Sad thing is, today is Kiri and I's four month anniversery and right now I feel like shit. I hope today ends up better than it started.

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My Palm Tungsten E likes to ruin my day

June 10th, 2005 (02:07 am)
angry

current mood: Kill everything
current song: None, but if I were it would be angry music

So, I've always have had trouble with my palm, either me trying to install stuff makes it crash, me trying to do anything makes it crash...

What just recently bugged me is that I've lost all my contacts... again. Not only does this affect my Palm contacts, but me, thinking that hey, if I sync my palm with my computer, it will get all the contacts off of Outlook and that will be that.

Well, my palm has other ideas, ones that basically are along the lines of HEY LETS FUCK CHRIS IN THE ASS. So what does my palm do, it deletes all my contacts because hey, if my palm can't have any contacts, neither should Outlook.

Not only are my Contacts gone, but so are my calendar entries.

FUCK I HATE MY PALM...

So angry... and I don't know how/if I can fix it

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RAPAGE!

June 7th, 2005 (10:32 pm)
full

current mood: so full...
current song: Baba O'Reilly - The Who



So, I came back from my cottage with some mosquito bites and went to work unknowingly. My legs were kind of itchy but I for the most part I didn't itch them. I didn't have any cream so it wasn't that bad. However, when I got home, man it was horrible. If I wanted to disgust you I would show you a picture but there are somet things better left unseen, like the removed goatse.cx site. Either way, I feel like a rape victem because I have so many horribly red mosquito bites, its a wonder that I don't have West Nile.

So, other than bitching, Evan and I got some work done up at my cottage and built a fence and a little firepit which we made smores in... hmmm smores.

Also, to finish up this short post, I made the above picture for Kiri for her exams, she's scared Phys125 won't go that well and that basically she'll get raped by it. Well, to find the above picture I searched for Hentai Rape, and after a couple of sites I found the above image... hehe